
What if the thing you gave up for God is the very thing you keep longing to go back for? Athanasius records Antony’s blunt warning about looking behind, and this reflection sits with the quiet pull of old comforts when God feels far away, and with what that backward glance really is.

Some days God feels farther away than others. The fog of spiritual dryness settles in, and the mirror through which we see his reflection grows dark and unpolished. In this Lectio Divina reflection, Robert Van Valkenburgh draws on Pseudo-Dionysius’s Mystical Theology and the Mary and Martha passage from Luke’s Gospel to explore what we…