
We close the door and sit down to pray, and the room fills up anyway: the unfinished work, the worries, the long list of everything we want to ask. John Cassian speaks of a chamber no door can build, and of a God who searches hearts rather than words. This reflection sits with the…

We keep waiting for our circumstances to change before we allow ourselves to rest, and the waiting quietly turns into clinging. Thomas Aquinas says charity has no limit to its increase, and this reflection sits with that strange claim, and with what we are holding so tightly that we cannot receive more.

We labor over our words before God: the right vocabulary, the careful phrasing, the prayer that sounds as it should. Teresa of Ávila describes a King who prefers something far plainer, and that preference quietly overturns what we think prayer is for. What might He be waiting to receive from us instead?

Nothing is hidden from God, and for many of us that is the most unsettling thing we could be told. Ambrose of Milan reasons from a single sparrow and the numbered hairs of our heads to the human heart, and the question that follows is hard to set down: what does God do with…

Some of us pray harder when God feels far away, as though enough effort might finally bring Him near. Anselm of Canterbury stands before the height of God and refuses to climb it, yet he never stops longing. This reflection sits with the ache of reaching for a mystery that cannot be reached, and…

What if the restless pull you feel toward God is not your own doing? Jerome answers the charge that Matthew left his tax booth too hastily with the image of a loadstone, and this reflection sits with that pull, and with the unsettling words “whom He will.”

If God has already given Himself without reservation, what is left to ask for? Karl Rahner prays for love anyway, and for every one of his days to find its way into a single day, and this reflection sits with the strange gift of asking for what is already given, and with the question…

What if the Love we keep putting off is already at work in us, long before we say yes? John of the Cross says the fire that transforms is the same fire that first prepares, and this reflection sits with a knock we cannot hear for the noise, and with how long mercy is…